So as you know i am a fighter of depression. And to be all the way honest 2019 has been a pain in the ass. I’m sure it been that way for many others as well. And as authentic as i am, I always told myself i will continue to live in my truth. I haven’t had an anxiety attack since 2015, but let me tell you that i literally almost had one twice in 2019. Thank god i got a hang of coping with it so i can prevent myself from having an episode.
The struggle is definitely real… but fearing from it can become a problem, and actually make the problem worst.
Depression is very common now, but no one really took those who suffered from it serious. When i realized no one really supported me through this journey of suffering from mental health, I took the initiative to be strong and fight it on my own. I mean i am a big girl, so no one is too blame, but support sometimes is needed.
Don’t fear from depression…
Because it’s only temporary. Depression is a mental health disease that can definitely be cured organically. First it depends on what you are depressed about.
I have a list of things i have been depressed about.
- Weight gained
From gaining weight it took a toll on me. I miss being able to wear the things i like, and looking good in it. I realized that i’m taunting myself for gaining weight instead of just taking care of it. All i have to do is change my diet, and exercise. I was letting the motivation voice in my head telling me “What are you yapping about, just go work out!” lol…. Literally, it’s easier then we think. It’s all in the mind when we complain about something being too hard or too difficult.
Suffering from insecurities has been a problem as well. I had no motivation in myself, never stayed consistent, didn’t acknowledge my beauty, always had negative things to say about myself. I really didn’t have any self-love at all. Why i felt that way? I can’t say, but i just knew i didn’t like who i seen in the mirror. I had to find myself, when i did, I began to love me more. I took time out to just focus on myself, and realized that i am the whole package no matter what anyone thinks.
Toxic relationships is definitely a big problem when it comes to depression. I’m not talking about just boyfriend & girlfriend, and husband & wife. Toxic relationships can be with friends and family members as well. Arguing, fighting, being in drama, and just losing your sanity because you been pushed to your breaking point with people can be the most worst thing ever to go through. I have been through it all until i finally gave up arguing with friends & family, rather i’m wrong or there wrong, I just suddenly knew that i’m done with it, and i will no longer engage into an argument. I had to choose myself first, and realize my happiness is more important.
I then been through it all but i still manage to not be afraid of depression. I had to always keep in my mind that everything is going to be okay, and i will work on my issues. At the end all you really have is yourself. Look as if you are your only GO TO, and you want to survive through the pain. You can, you definitely can, so work for that happiness. Find the problem and then find the solution. Once you find the solution, SOLVE IT.
You are more stronger then you think…I told myself that everyday, now i am a tough cookie!..
I hope this helped!
Have a great night/morning….. 🙂
Love, faith, & happiness!